New Prospective

This past week has been kind of hard for me. I have been struggling with many things in life and seem to be standing immovable, confused and worried. But from past experiences like this I have learned that this type of mentality doesn't get me anywhere. I have released that the only way I can progress and move on is to change my prospective. This might be hard, but I am ready to do so.

So I begin by stop worrying about myself. I need to change my prospective to my Savior, Jesus Christ. He knows what I am going through and that I need a friend. But I first need to be a friend to Him. My plan is to list ten things I am thankful for. I am so blessed and have been blind to this, this last week. The list:
1. My Savior
2. For life
3. Family, friends
4. Dance
5. The sun each and everyday
6. The ability to smile and laugh
7. Opportunities to grow
8. Chocolate
9. Education
10. Love

There are so much much more I am thankful for, but this is a start to my new prospective. I want to become a better person and figure things out in life. I know i have a very long way to go, but the road starts here and I everything starts with a first step in the right direction.

Tears

Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face. Emotion of sadness swelled uncontrollably and I didn't know what to do. All I could do was to cry my eyes out. So that is what I did...I cried, cried and cried. After composing myself I sat back and started to think. I seem to be crying more often than usual...but everyone needs a good cry once in a while. And in this situation there seems to be two ways to handle it.

There is the option of continuing to cry and do nothing but cry. Although that sounds the easier way, there always comes a time that crying isn't the way to figure things out. The other option was to stop crying, pick myself up, brush off the dust and move on. This is what I am trying to do and this alone is a hard thing to do. I have found that in this act alone heart ache happens, but eventually you become a stronger person. That is what I am trying to remind myself and that everything always works out the way it is suppose to. Crying usually comes with the territory. But I am grateful for these moments because that is when I discover more about myself and my life.

Footsteps of the future

Today has been a day for me of thinking and trying to start on the road that points a direction in my life. I feel like sometimes, or most of the time, I am standing in an endless maze that just is confusing and I don't know where to start. I have felt this way off and on with my life, but more so about trying to figure out my future. This is a daunting task for me and i don't think I have the courage to move my feet. But then I realize that I am always talking about "me, me, me". When in reality this is not the case. I am not alone, I have my loving and guiding Heavenly Father always there to help me.

I love to read books and one book I am reading is called The Promise of Enough by Emily Freeman. I am really liking this book, but one thing she wrote stuck me today. She says, "He is greater than a problem I will encounter during my mortal existence. Often it is only after I have taken the time to remember God's greatness and His ability to work wonders in my life that I finally find the peace I am looking for. Then, I set a plan to do my very best to solve the problem, knowing that after all I can do, He will take care of the rest."

This i guess just made me stop and think even more. I realized that I need to trust more and exercise more faith. Because everything works out. Many times it isn't the way you expect it or the timing either, but it does happen.After coming to this realization all I need to do is pick up my feet and make my footsteps into my future with the Lord's help always!

Chocolate and strawberries

Chocolate...Strawberries...Can I say that I love love love chocolate and strawberries. I think those are my two favorite foods, I eat them whenever and whatever mood I am in. LOVE IT!!!! As I look back over the past couple of weeks there has been chocolate and strawberries...hands down. Lets see, when I am with my favorite friends these two food groups are present. The first Sunday epic picnic, going to Bridal Falls, eating at Zupas, movie nights and just a handy snack.

Chocolate and strawberries have brought me closer to three people in particular. Caitlin, Cortney and I made a tradition of having a Sunday picnic after church and so we did. We brought along chocolate and strawberries. We just had a girls day out, talking about everything and anyone...You know what girls talk about ;) We then had a movie night one night and guess two foods was there?...You are right, chocolate and strawberries!!! We shared another fun filled night with talking, laughing and growing closer as best friends that do! However, my favorite person enjoyed a moment spent with chocolate and strawberries. Keenan and I went out to eat at Zupas...the best place ever. We had a great dinner, talking about everything, life, fun times and basically everything. At then end, guess what was waiting? A chocolate covered strawberry!!

Ok, so don't get my wrong chocolate and strawberries is probably one of the best things in the world. But what I love more about it, are the people who you share those moments with. Cortney and Caitlin are two amazing gals ever. I look up to them so so much. They both are absolutely beautiful, so talented, great personalities, loves the gospel and are just great friends. Keenan is an amazing boyfriend, but more than that he is my best friend. He is always there to listen to me, and I love learning from him each and every day. He is the smartest person and it is so much fun picking his brain,lol. He is the greatest blessing ever. So, I guess i have learned that chocolate and strawberries is amazing...but it is more than that. It is those sweet moments in life that really counts. Those are the times where you learn, grow as a person and meet people. Those are the moments you remember when times are hard, and what you want in life. Then those are the people you become best friends with. I love the quote that goes something like this... "It isn't the breaths in a moment, but the moments that take your breath away." Ok, honestly I just messed that completely up. But I hope you get what I mean. It is all about the moments in life that take your breath away and not the amount of breaths you take. These moments that I have experienced with these three amazing people, I want to cherish forever!!!

The beginning of my blog!

So, my friend just helped me create my blog and I got really excited. Most of my friends have a blog and I see how much they love to post and keep up with each other. I was like, "What the heck?" I need to do that! So here I am writing how excited I am for my new blog. But this a true statement. I have always felt like I can write things down better than sometimes when I say things. But now as I think, I want to be able to write anything I want on this blog, and trust me, that will happen. But right now, I just have to say how blessed I am. I have absolutely amazing friends. I love being able to hang out and do fun things all the time with them. I have learned so much and have seen how amazing each of my friends are. I am so so grateful for that! They always keep me going and make sure that party is always going on!!

I have realized that sitting back and thinking about all the things you are grateful for makes everything so much better. I know this is a little random, but one thing about me, is that I tend to be random sometimes. I am so grateful for my friends. For my amazing boyfriend who just makes life happen. I am so blessed to have him in my life, he is my best friend and i can always count on him. I am so grateful to be getting an education, to be able to dance at an amazing university, to have the best family ever, and I guess in short, I am grateful that I am alive!! I can't wait to see what this blog becomes, and I know it will be amazing. Just wait... I mean I can't even do that!! I know that this will be the best thing ever!!